MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!
Last night was a blast!! thanks guys for the welcome feeling!!
Well, today is cccccold! I get to drive to Love Feild, drop off the family I work for,change cars and come back. Not looking forward to the drive at all. But it will be allright. If today was good enough for our Savior to allow us to celebrate His birth, then whatever happens is good enough for me. But,uh, God, can you make the snow melt? No black ice please? thanks : )

I am looking forward to dinner. Sounds YUMMY!

Oh no, I think my employers called and my inbox was full. Didnt get the important mssg I needed. Uh oh. I gotta go get em at 330.
I gotta go, I will post later.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!

Hey!

Make sure you clean your chimmneys out cauze I heard you were all good this year! Break out with the cookies and milk (I heard he prefers chocolate). See Jesus and Santa, they tizight!

Jesus told Santa what was up and now santa has just a few hours to get presents out. So help expedite, aight??

Well, Im at Soul's. The snow has been coming down! I really want to get to a Christmas Eve service, but we will see..............

We opened some presents this morning. Soul got a nice Bible,Soulkid got a really cute one peice short/top outfit, Soulman got Burberry for men and I got a camera!! I been wanting one really bad. so thanks again Soul! : )

Tomorrow I go get the family I work for at the airport. I sure hope its not early.

My phone is acting strange. I dropped it outside in the snow, sure hope thats not the prob. The back of the phone wasnt wet, and it was acting strange before I dropped it. Oh well.

Ok. Im gonna go see if Milestones service starts soon. its closer than where I was going to go.

I was supposed to go meet a friend for the first time at his church, but its cold,roads are slippery and I dont know that church.

See ya!

Sunday

Today was a pretty good day. I got up early to get to church. Glad I did. the worship was great. They have beautiful voices. The message was about forgiveness. The speaker was a friend of the pastors. He told his story of lifelong abuse at the hands of his father and others. I told Soul I felt like it was my story. Almost same background.
Anyway, this pastor thought he was ok when he was talking to God about God searching his heart for anything that offended God. He thought God would say 'you're good". God didn't. He told this pastor that he was harboring forgiveness against his dad.
So this pastor made a list of all the things his dad did then went to see his dad and went thru the list and forgave each offense. It was a powerful time and healing as well. His dad cried. So did alot of people in the church this morning. I think people were thinking of others they need to forgive. I know I did. Surprisingly I did not cry.

My face hurts. I think my face is acclimating, but Im breaking out like a prepubescent teenager. Yuk twice.

I just txt my daughter. I miss my girls. Alot. If I could put them on a plane and put them up in a hotel for Christmas, then i would be just peachy. I wasn't thinking about the holidays when I left California. It will be ok. I will have to save up and send for them after the holidays when rates go waaaay down.
I can think of someone else I would love to see also.
So anyway, I start work tomorrow. This should be interesting. Im also looking forward to starting school. Just 3 more years of it.HA!
Ok, Im done. Im fine, just a little low this evening.
Have a great week!

For Sis N Soul

here's a video for you. About a house that decorates itself. Don't you wish you could just direct everything to go where you want and then take the credit for it? LOL. Has flashing images. So If you cant take it, don't watch!

Do I Have To?

Oh wow. Sounded like something just ran by my head. Im laying in bed upstairs. Must be something on the roof or in the attic. Here, let me use my X-ray vision to see what it is.
Oh drat. Forgot I gave my superhero powers to one of the X Men. Oh well.
So hows your day? Mine has been s l o w so far. The day is cool (rain tomorrow) and it's a sleepy day. But alas, we are getting a Christmas tree today! I love the smell of a Christmas tree! ***DISCLAIMER- I WILL NOT BE RESPONSIBLE FOR MY ACTIONS IF I HEAR ANYONE CALL IT A HOLIDAY TREE!!!!! I hope we get a smelly one. Uh, one that smells good, I mean.


All right. Im going to see about getting some serious zzzzzz's in for a few minutes. I hope you have a pleasant day!

Where'd My Post Go??

Wow. Blogspot must have been offended because I posted one sentence. LOL. I figure there must be a 2 sentence minimum? Oh well.
On to other things.............

Today was great! A little emotional (more so this week if you ladies know what I mean), but time well spent w/friends (like family) eating,talking and laughing. I started to cry earlier talking to my daughter. I do miss them. Alot. But their growed to coin a phrase. It's just this was the first year that I have not actually made something or had Thanksgiving w/them.

After dinner, which was actually spent at the table w/no TV, we watched Four Christmases. Great movie w/ Vince Va Va Voom Vaughn and Reese Witherspoon. Didnt they hook up at one point?

And after that, while Dallas kicked Raider butt, I made calls and txts from family and friends. musta said Happy Thanksgiving a thousand times. Im soooo past that now. I decided to say Merry Christmas now. HA!

Im just soooooo darn Thankful like never before.
Annnnnddddd tp top that off an old friend called me back after I asked if i could tell his daughter Happy Thanksgiving. She's just a doll! I must have asked her 12 thousand questions and super fast. lol. I was nervous. Must have been a precursor to later in the conversation because my friend got on the phone and asked me uncomfortable yet encouraging questions ( do NOT wake me up at 6 Soul to ask!!) . Im hoping this will go places.........hehe

Oh, did I mention that I have a fantastic pic of them? Kinda captures their personality in it.

So now Im in bed watching The Matchmaker w/Jeannie garasomething. A pretty good movie.
Im a sucker for a good romance. Lots of cussing in it though.

See you in the AM!

Happy Thanksgiving!!

Well. I woke up. Mother Nature visited me. I need to get up. Im done.

Just a quick post. Im supposed to be in the shower getting ready to go to the job. Today is the day that I get to spend actual time at home w/the family I will be nannying (is that a word?). I look forward to it. It's part of The Dream. Another step.
I took a Stoopid FB Test today (that's what I call them) and it was "what song describes your life" and it said it was accurate. It was! My song was "Unwritten" by natasha somebody. I went and watched it and realized it was a remake. But I listened to it really for the first time. really listened. Wow. Gotta love it!
Anyway. Idon't have much to write. The brain is in a slight fog for the moment. Would love for you to drop a line and let me know how YOUR doing!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4lFXy5bIiSA

Secret

First of all,I would like to thank all the people that made this happen.............lol. Ok, just kidding! Kinda.
Thank you for the kind comment Soul. And yes, Cabela's was something else!
Of course it does not take much to entertain me.
So this journey called Texas, hmmm, where do I start?
How about w/the walk home yesterday?
Ma, you know your not in California anymore when you see this:










Quite the culture shock here for me!
Imagine of you will a place where men actually open the doors for ladies,say please and thank you,SMILE at strangers and ask "How y'all doin?"
Wow, I think Im in heaven!
Now, if I could just find that MAN. Hmmmmmm
You see, I KNOW I should be married.
How?
Glad you asked!
I LOVE to take care of people! And don't like lonely.
I just had to "redefine" my title.
I went from "single mom" to "empty nester". YUK TWICE!
So where the heck are the Gentlemen? The good ones that is!

Ok, I'll be patient. I still have 3 or more years for school.
but when Im done it would be nice to have a soulmate,business partner and confidante.
You writing this all down, God?

Allright, on to other matters.
I have a job. Kinda. I start the nanny job Tues (tomorrow). Soul and Soulman have been kind enough to let me borrow the car. Thanks, guys! I keep telling Soul that her n Soulman are like peas n carrots.
And then next week my employers will rent a car for me to use to drive out there to work as a live-out. And if all goes well, I will become a live-in!
We all get along very well. they have 2 year old twins and a 7 year old . Cute family.

It will be nice to work again. Specially taking care of a household. Yah, im strange, I know.
Yikes! Dogs went beserk. I turned on music and they are not used to it. Wow. it's ok though.
Funny how even animals have routines.

Im about to be outta here but wanted to share why the post was named Secret. I have a secret blogspot where I once posted a very personal poem. felt like if i did NOT blog some feelings, that I would explode like the Blueberry girl from Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.
Well, I went to the blog to make it go byebye because I thought it just rambled (and it did). But a guy who posts poems here all the time said he was drawn in and was waiting to see more.
I have decided I will keep this secret blogspot and post more.
That's all for now!

Wee Haw!!

Hello Everyone!
It's been a loooong time beetween posts. Didn't mean to stay away for so long.
Well, things have progressed alot since my last post. Im in Texas now and loving it!
I experienced my first TX thunderstorm last night. Not too bad, but I ended up on the couch downstairs and scared the crud outta Soul. Sorry Soul : )

So I had decided to leave my church family, my real family,my hometown and California for something better.
I had been becoming more and more depressed since the last post and really just felt like laying down and dying due to all that junk going on in my life. And even worse was just the fact that I wasn't even sure where my relationship w/God was even going. And He has always been my First Love. the idea of not trusting in and relying on Him was breaking my heart. I didnt understand at that point that He was leading me to a new place. And it wasn't working because it time for change.
I was advised to stay and that was really working on me because I consider myself to be very loyal and felt that to leave may be the wrong thing to do, but still had to admit that I had my peace w/the decision to leave.
This Journey has been the best so far. Im curious to see where it leads. I applied to college to get my BS in Business Mgmt but have to start off w/my AA and may work my way up. Depends.
My dream is to own a B&B. My plan is to get a job (3 interviews this week,yay!),go to school for at least 3 years to tweak the hospitality skills already placed in me, pay off my debt and then pursue my dream of owning the B&B.

Problem is that I will end up owing for the schooling when Im done. Well, I guess that's the price you pay for the dream.
Im not the greatest blogger and I apologize for that. And Im getting distracted by nekkid men on Souls blog (OMG did she really do that? lol!),watches and food.
I give up. I'll get back to this later.
And I'll have a tell all about a certain someone that is becoming very special to me.
Ok. Tata for now!

MI VIDA LOCA

Ok, so here it is about 6 months from my last blog. so sorry. Imma just start writing (rambling). In the last year I have seen Hell and visited it and it's NOT pretty!!! Here's a list of what has happened:
**Eldest daughter moved back to hometown w/abusive boyfriend and 2 kids. Moved in w/me. he moved in w/church family after giving life to God. Did good for awhile. Didnt want to go all the way and ended up leaving mad,lying and of all things,pregnant. Daughter moved in w/dad, said she hated my guts and I would never see or hear from them again (Thank God that only lasted 2 months!) This all came out because her Bi Polar boyfriend put his hand thru her window and then threatened the rest of the family to shoot them (us).

** Middle child decided she didnt like house rules and we were always fighting so she moved out on a bad nate.

**My baby has been badly affected by this, she turns 18 in 2 weeks and has been doing stuff behind my back. So I released her to move in w/her aunt early.

** Was doing daycare in the midst of all of this and because my eldest was lazy to clean up after her and her 2 babies, I did it. I was working from 7 am sometimes till 10pm and not making money or getting rest. So i shut my daycare down thinking I could get another job. I mean, i have A:WAYS had at least 2 jobs!

** I had an errand service for 9 years working and making great money for a couple w/health issues. So they passed on w/in a few months of each other. So I lost income there not to mention the fact that the wife was a dear friend. : (

** That left me no option but to give back my van that I had been paying on for 3 years.

** so now its 5 months later and I still have no job, no car and the self esteem has been shot down to nothing! It could have been easier if the ex had paid child support these last 3 years.

** and the topper was when my phone was stolen and sold to someone in another part of the state (like it's Flat Stanley or something!)
** Oh yea, It's menopause time (like Hammertime, but different)

YUKKKK!!

Im telling you, I was ready to call someone up and just LEAVE!!! Seriously!!

BUT....................
God's mercy is greater and I have wonderful pastors that God was already putting me on their hearts to come talk to me. So my female pastor (Pastor's wife) comes and knocks on my door and stays and just LISTENS to me rant and rave (calmly) for 2 hours, then she prays for me and I could feel things "lifting" away from me.
Also that night an old friend calls me after I had seen him on facebook and written him. I was so happy because this person was a major part of my life as a teenager. he was a friends boyfriend. I had always loved his openess and felt comfortable around him. well he confesses to me that he actually liked me back then! Wow , that FLOORED me! I didnt say too much about it, but I was remembering that I used to be attracted to hom too. But at that point it would have caused trouble. I never let any males get too close anyway back then.
So as Im talking to him imrealizing that all my life I have had an affinity to men w/red hair. it almost instantly puts me at ease (go figure). I have been attracted to certain color redheads, and that my type was and IS his personality!!
He is still pretty easy going after all these years and a divorce. I didnt ask about what happened in his divorce because i AM attracted to him. So he works at an interesting place and so I grabbed my daughter and went to visit him at work about 3 days later after talking on the phone. I never told him I liked him, that would put me in an uncomfortable spot. We get there and he takes us around and shows us the different areas, and Im liking it more and more .
Now mind you I was divorced in 99 , have not slept w/another man snce then and dated very briefly in 99-2000 and it left very bad taste in my mouth! I have been waiting patiently for a very long time and will continue to wait for the RIGHT one. But oh how I was letting myself get close to him. And it felt oh so dang RIGHT!!! Whenever the male species (or anyone) gets too close I back away. i have "comfort" zones and use them. But I could for the life of me NOT help myself! aggghhh!
Im frustrated because he is on the brain, and I really want to tell hom how it has been for me since I started talking to him. But I want him to make the first move. And then there I have another prblem. My morals concerning dating are high. I just dont! I would like to get married again someday (soon would be nice but I hate the whole "courting" stage. I also want a man of God . I wont even go there.
Anywhooo. this man has a whole LOT of characteristics I have wanted in a husband. From a great job, to the way he treats females and family, easy attitude and kinda laid back . So you tell me, do i like these traits because I seen them in him from a long time ago? Or does he just have them cause God put these desires in me? I feel TORTURED!!! I keep asking God to take this away because:

**I have eaten my way thru the last year and now have let my self go (but been losing a lb a day since my pastor viseted-no more appitite) and am insecure about my weight

** Am thinking he wont feel the same

**Have always prided myself about having a job and transportation. Now nothing. i sometimes HATE American culture

** Want to make sure It's not a temp "rescue" thing on my behalf although I dont think so

**Hope Im not putting what I "think he is" on him

**Goes against every princeple I have been taught. Am I too churchy for him?? I would never abandon my God for ANYTHING, but would I back off some of my princeples and risk backsliding for him according to my current church? And please dont be harsh about my church I have seen miracles in mine and others lives thru the years and if you know me you can feel it thru my conversations.

**Does he even think ANYTHING about me besides "what a nice visit"?


**Am waiting for his next move

So how can a level headed woman who has fought tooth and nail to make sure NO One gets close to her (male wise) completly lose her cool in a matter of a 2 hour conversation and a 4 hour visit to his work???? And I know he has a heart for God , but serving God is another matter entirely. I want time and opportunity to get to know these things.
Ok, Im done. i need to try to go get some sleep now.
Go ahed input me : )
DISCLAIMER- I am NOT going back over my notes because I would have to fix ALL the typo's and Im just not "there"
Ni NIGHT Blog World!

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Sukky Day Somebody's Laughing ALL the Way to The Bank!

Oh Happy Day!
Just a brief rundown at the Rodriguez household:
Today started off in the normal way (gulp). Thought I'd get some R & R. Take a leisurely bath, get dressed and go do a couple things.
Ha!
My daughter told me she had maggots under the carpet!! GROSS! You see, a few months back our water heater leaked thru the wall and into the carpet. This carpet is 20 years old so you can imagine that it already smelled pretty bad.
So now we will have to spray,pull up the carpet,cut it into 3 peices cauze the garbage man (is that term politically correct?) wont pick it up for free if we dont,bleach the HECK outta the room AND I still have to try to find a carpet we can put over the concrete for free or near free.
Ok, that was number ONE. Here's number TWO:
Mind you , I already said we needed free stuff.......
Our water heater went out! So now we gotta boil water on the stove if we want to bathe. All 6 of us! 4 adults and 2 babies. Yuk!
But that's ok, I keep myself laughing because I actually put an ad up for a free, get this, USED water heater!! hahahahahahahahaha
I reaaly must trust God, cauze I knew when I put it up that it was near impossible, but..... He IS the God of the impossible. So anyway, I'll keep yall posted.
Since Im such a darn romantic. Im gonna watch the Nora Roberts movie I recorded. Well, Ill watch parts of it. I skip over the super sexed scenes like the good 9cough cough) girl that I am! toodles!

Missing Lamp

Weird.









oh yeah, my mom's candy stash. This is prob the freshest candy I seen in there since 1973 and it's prob candy from 1988!

My Visit To My Mother

Went to visit my mom. Here's what transpired. Ended up calling an old stepbrother. Gilly. Or rather he called my mom back as a surprise.










My mom used to be married to a nightmare of a stepdad. The man was just plain MEAN and he did things I won't mention for those who dont know me. But praise God I have been healed! Anywhoo, Im happy to hear from them as they were super fun and most were nice. Oddly enough I got along the best w/Gilly and the first brother I called after 25 years,Larry (no pic yet) who broke my wrist when he was 15 and I was 9 or so. He fell on my wrist while playing football in my front yard. All 200 lbs of him!


So he sent me pics of his twin Robby. Both are confirmed bachelors and their birthday is the day after mine. To this day my mom STILL gets MY bday wrong and I get a phone call on THIER bdays! sukky!

Gilly was the lous funny one,Robby was the quiet pushy one,Debbie was the down to earth one who made guys heads turn .
















And last comes Marilou the Janet Jackson look alike. well, back then.




They all look the same but different??
So anyway, we had fun w/all the txts and pics.

Back to the visit:
Mom was ok. She ahs been thru 2 cancerous situations and is down to 85 lbs. She looked better today mebbe she gained a little weight.
She ran out of TP in the bathroom and said she had plenty under the sink. So being the good little daughter I am, I went to replace the roll,lemme say that again, replace the roll (for all you non roll replacing people out there, SHAME ON YOU!). And dang! the woman had 4 rows deep of the stuff! She said that the lady across the st actually SELLS the stuff out of her garage. Like 22 rolls for 5 bucks!! So since she goes into Mexico all the time I wondered if she's some sort of TP smugglin secret person type uh,person. I could write a book about it ya know!! Sounds THAT far out!











Hey Rhetta and Gaga! Lookie what I found in my moms closet! You think YOU had old clothes? This is 80's stuff! can you say yuk twice?yuk! yuk!






Last but not least........
And I just HAD to take a pic of this lamp!! Remember this one?? lol! My mom put it in the middle room just a couple years ago and replaced it w/TWO ugleeeeee lamps w/lampshades that don't even fit them! hahaha
(serious!! I "lost" my lamp pic...here lampy lampy lampy. If it somehow shows up when I post,so be it,if not well, I dunno what to say.......)

My Man

Hey there! I been wanting to do this for a long time, so here goes......
The Bible says to "write the vision,make it plain on tablets" or in modern day times "get a specific goal and write it down, stoopid, before you forget the dream!". Ok maybe not so harsh,but you get the pic.
My ideal man:
Definitely Christian! He better love Jesus more than he loves me!
At least 5"11".
Lean to slightly bulky ok
HAS to want to experiment in the kitchen and try healthy meals using REAL food.
Would rather GO see a game than spend all his extra time watching one.
On that note wants to spend more time with me than the tV.
Hates conflict but will confront when necessary.
Has a good job. I want to be a kept woman!ha! But I plan on being good to him.
No children in the house.
Is semi spontaneous.
Cleans up after himself.
Debt free or close to it and hates credit and debt as much as I do.
Is patient and kind.Not loud or brassy.
AND
Is willing to put up w/all my crud!!!
yah I believe he exsists. I can wait. But I hope God hurries. I been divorced since 1999!

Crazy Days

Ok, this week turned out tottally different than I expected. Here's a brief (I hope) recap:
*Mon-Ok day- had no daycare kids but onein the pm
*Tues-also went ok
*Wed-Ok, this is the day! About 5pm I got a call from an old friend. She asked if I knew what apt # her bro's lived in. I said no. She then told me she was worried because someone called her and said he was very depressed and was worried that he might harm hisself (himself?).
My friend wanted to call the ambulance but didnt have the exact address. So I asked her to keep me informed since I have been friends w/her family for about 25 years. So while in the church nursery I get this txt from her that hes on his way to the local emergency rm. No other info.
So I decide that after awhile I will head up to the ER.
When I get there they won't tell me a thing! I said I was family so I could get in. There was no other family member there and Im thinkin that if he's passed out,tried to kill himself,mebbee I will be the last person he sees before he goes to ??? and I wanted to make sure he made the uh,better, decision.
After 30 min they let me into the actual bed area of the ER. much to my surprise he comes walkin out of the bathroom weaving around. He was super drunk! SoI wait around for him to get discharged and Im talkin to him and he's breakin down. He cant believe Im the one to be there. He's 4 years older than me and was my friends big bro. he had come tomy church a few times but the lure of the bottle was greater. A friend once called it "liquid courage".
Anywhoooo, he's telling me he needs a "good woman", Im tellin him he needs Jesus. Women didn't help him so far. So then we go get my daughter from church (she's waiting in the bathroom cauze its 10:30pm and Im NOT driving him home by myself even tho I do trust him).
On the way he says he's gonna fill up my tank. We go to the gas station and he's looking much better. We park outside his house and talk for awhile and in that talk he tells me "Why don't you marry me and have my kids?' He's was laughing,but he wasn't kidding (at that moment). If I had gone home,got my clothes and moved in that night,he would have been trippin IM SURE, the next morning!!
Im not that great lookin and im defineatly NOT a spring chicken! I told my daughter that at 2am to someone that's drunk EVERYONE looks good and it's his 2 o clock!
Anyway, the next day he tells me he's checking into rehab for the DT's for 5 days. I believe God can do ANYTHING in a short amount of time and Im believing he will deliver my friend from alcohol. But 5 days is not enough time to heal what's REALLY bothering people.
So Im gonna leave you with THIS to comment on.
Aud
PS> did Imention that this man used to look like Richard Gere? sad. He asked me how he looked and I told him "bad". But he's still young.

Sukky Pics

Just wanted to apologize for the way my pics ended up on the website. Be patient w/me. Ill figure it out.

Ventura Pics From Phone

This pic is a downtown Ventura mission. Kids were splashing around in the water. It was 72 degrees.And hot!

Hey there! Got Back last night. Had a good time. Left the 2 oldest girls at home while me n the youngest went. The older ones were getting on my nerves. Ok, so I will try to explain each pic.If you can see the top o the bus it says "Surf Bus" cool!

These were surfers not mammels



Park acroos from hotel. Pool Skye and sidewalk cafe






bedroom/king bed/fireplace!
view outside room lobby and cookies!

Off on an Adventure well, off to Ventura anyway

So I booked on Expedia. And got a king sized bed,fireplace,FREE parking, 1 block from beach all for the low low price of 89.97! so I will post pics or send some to Soul or Sis and if they want to post,that's quite all right by me. So toodles for now.
Audrey

Good For Today

Ok, So I been looking online for someplace for me n my daughter to "get the heck outta Dodge".I plan on leaving tonight at 6. And Im on a budget So this morn I get up and go to read my daily devotional. Only I don't wanna go to Kenneth Copeland's website. I feel to go to Morris Cerullo instead where I see THIS :

God Will Direct You Feb 24

What a hoot!
Anyway,hope y'all have a slammin Friday! Whatever that means.......

Overcoming

well, the last few days have been doozy's. One of my kids is feeling overwhelmed at the things of life. Im feeling overwhelmed at the things around me (fighting w/one child,feeling for the overwhelemed, the other one has her own adult issues involving kids) and etc,daycare,money,foreclosure issues,other responsibilities.yuk.
I am a Christian and glad about the fact that if I was not I would have LOST IT years ago.
So after reading Souls post I am going to be glad that if prioritys are in order then I will be thankful for the people in my life and what really matters (Im working on being there).
I do remember being on the verge years ago oof literally breaking down. I was chosing to be away from God. But I got so darn angry that I cried out (literally) to Him and said I needed Him. And I was mad and depressed. And I remember that He did answer me. I ended up exhauseted and the next AM I woke up feeling waaay better.
So I am going to keep believeing Him to move like that again and I am working on changing things in my life. I take on too much of other peoples stuff.
I am hoping that me and skye can get away this weekend and go somewhere quiet, away from the immeadiate area. mebbe the beach or mtns or at least as far as 60.00 takes me! Ha!
Wish I had a camper. or a husband..LOLOLOLOL!
Ok, im gonna go get ready for church and lose this attitude during praise and worship. Yah,its THAT good!
And I will apologize to all 2 people tommrow that read this blog for my crazy,make no sense blog.
**Wow, I think I feel a little better already

Random Thoughts

This is my end of the weekend thoughts. Tommrow I go back to being John and Kate plus eight. Just minus John and one or two kids depending on what day of the week it is. Yah, I act like her sometimes im told.
We had a great "singles" meeting last night. The thing I like about singles is that we are taught and carry the mentality that this is our time to accomplish in our singlehood the things we cant do when we are married. marraige carries different responsibilities that singleness does not. Instead of caring for just yourself, you care for and consult decisions w/your spouse.
When your single you can get up and go when you need to.
I also like the mentality that we are not "pining away" or "waiting out" our singlehood. I am not looking for someone to complete me, like Im half a person w/out a mate. Im working on becoming a whole person (getting rid of most of my luggage). Instead of looking for the "right one" Im working on myself being the "right one".
ok, on to the next subject........

I hope topost personal pics of family on here. How do I do that in the middle of a blog?
Geez, I finally take a decent pic and need to post it before I back out.
okee, Im so tired I need to go. Post a thought on this blog will ya?

Where is yall?

hello hello hello. Is anyone out there? out there? out there?
Looks like we all took a break.

Row row row yur Boat

Anyone got paddles and a boat? We got a flood watch out here!! Hahaha

Just Another Day

Well, not really. Im still fighting this stupid virus. I have no insurance to see a Dr. But I do have my faith in God and vitamin B and C.
It's been raining here for 2 days and for the California desert that's refreshing!If my cell phone worked properly I would post a pic of our gorgeous desert. I lived in Washington state for 2 years and it rained all the time but it didnt smell the way the Antelope valley does during rain. I missed it.
Ok, Im rambling because I really don't have much to say.
I will after this weekend. Beetween tonight and Sun I get to:
1).Pass out flyers for our "Sat Night Alive". Tonight.
2).facial for me and daughter (compliments of Bethany for Chritmas),shopping for our Sun lunch @ church for about 100 people,errands for an 80 yr old man and THEN Saturday Night Alive (which will be loads of fun,seriously,no sarcasm). All on Sat.
3).I get to set up our lunch and pick up Chinese (yummy) food for all those 100 people and serve them. And clean up (w/help) after them. Yay!
Ok, don't get me wrong, I believe God puts certain gifts in you and in order for you to be happy, you need to utilize those gifts. But I will hopefully not wiped out by this weekend.
I really really really really really want a weekend alone on a sunny beach (ok already! Ill SAY it .......HAWAII!)
so much for not saying anything. TTFN!

Down But Not Out

Hello Blogland!
I was super ikky yesterday. I stayed in bed all day. I had one kid yesterday for my daycare. Ipicked him up, fed him a bannanna and we went down for a nap! We slept for about 4 hours. I then woke him up and had my daughter take him home (thanks Skye!) and yup, you guessed it went back to bed! Exciting aint it? I even missed church and I never miss church! Were a wild bunch and Jesus always makes his prescence known, so I hate missing.
But anyway,hope y'all are doin great! What??? I can say y'all if I want to. Im from SOUTHERN Cali,doncha know!
Ok, I gotta go my day is booooring. All I have been doing is wiping snot off little kids noses.
TTFN

Bloh Bloh Blog

Hello everyONE,
Today is a day to fight sickness and Im sick of being sick!
I have been choking on phlegm for 4 days now. Yuk.
S'allright though, I have nowhere to go but up^
I have been trying to find jobs in the prison system. They have a hiring freeze,but I believe I will have doors opened to me.
My friend has a job there doing what we both did in the school we worked at.
She makes appx 20.00 hr working w/adults in a classroom setting w/incarcerated adults.Sounds good to me!
Being a Christian I am right now having to practice what I preach. My daughters fiance is here and while I have to love him, I really don't like him. He is making progress in the fact that he is working on serious character flaws (anger).But still has a long way to go because you have heard the old saying you treat those closest to you like dirt when things get hot.Pray for me.
Ok, that's enough, I gotta go.
Cya!
PS. I have tried everything I can to find bloggers on blogspot but still dont know how to find some sort of search engine. But I have built it, they will come........

another awesome video

My girls were in this drama. We just hav'nt posted it yet. This is just the best version:

Best song on the planet

Just shut out the world,shut your eyes and imagine it's just you and Jesus (like a prayer). Think of it as MORE than just a song Tell me you won't be changed! Dang ,it's like taking a bath after a hard day working........

uhhhh, what???

Ola!
Im baaaack! I could possibly get used to this whole blogger thing once I get everything set up. I really dont like being on the computer but blogging is great. Just dont let me complain too much ok? My reason for blogging is to remind myself to stay "up". Yah, I am gonna vent every once in a awile but still ......
This am I woke up feeling better (i been sick) but Iam claiming the promises of God (by His, Jesus, sripes I WAS healed!) so rather than become discouraged by all the lovely hacking phlegm I amgoing to be encouraged by the fact that it's not as bad a s yeaterday. Ok, HA! I just looked at what I wrote and am thinking its funny. Another thing I amdoing is typing like a mad woman w/out caring whjat it looks like. So if I have typo's pklease forgive me. My daughter "cleaned" all the disgusting food out of my keyboard, and man! was it GROSS! She took ALL the letters out and when she did she broke the spacebar, so now sometimes thewords all run into each other if its not hit just right. That and the fact that I amtyping this all in less than 5 minutes should be an interesting read for someone. Have fun trying to figure out what I am writing....toodles fifor now...
Hey! where in the world are all those interesting people to read my blog anyway?/

COME OUT COME OUT WHEREVER YOU ARRRREE

Brennnnnnnnnn. Where are you!?!!??

Hi there again!
Just wanted to let you guys know that I aint letting this website beat me! Here's a quick rundown since Dec 2nd.
1. Daughter moved in w/ 2 grandbabies
2.They drive me crazy sometimes
3. Thank God for the Word of God and His promises (Great shall be the peace of my children ) (I will keep him in perfect peace whose mind has STAYED on Me)
4. I am having seperation anxiety from my kids (my baby is 17 and going to Africa this year) (My second is 18 and prob moving out next year to go to Biola U) (and my eldest is 19 and getting married this year)
5.Daycare is picking up. I have been living hand to mouth for 2 years pretty much, BUTTTTT, Everythings about to change!!
6. Most of the strange things you have been reading are the prophetic words of God that Ihave been clinging to. The Bible says to "wage war w/ prophecy" and I HAVE to! That or give up.
7. My fave prophetic word this year is "It's ok, God's got THIS one!"<----feel free to take that and apply like lotion to your currnt messed up situation.
8. Im not sure I want to continue doing daycare but it's scary when your 41 and dont have alot of skills.
9. Last butnot least rambling thought........I have figured out a little more about Blogspot!! Yay!