Sunday

Today was a pretty good day. I got up early to get to church. Glad I did. the worship was great. They have beautiful voices. The message was about forgiveness. The speaker was a friend of the pastors. He told his story of lifelong abuse at the hands of his father and others. I told Soul I felt like it was my story. Almost same background.
Anyway, this pastor thought he was ok when he was talking to God about God searching his heart for anything that offended God. He thought God would say 'you're good". God didn't. He told this pastor that he was harboring forgiveness against his dad.
So this pastor made a list of all the things his dad did then went to see his dad and went thru the list and forgave each offense. It was a powerful time and healing as well. His dad cried. So did alot of people in the church this morning. I think people were thinking of others they need to forgive. I know I did. Surprisingly I did not cry.

My face hurts. I think my face is acclimating, but Im breaking out like a prepubescent teenager. Yuk twice.

I just txt my daughter. I miss my girls. Alot. If I could put them on a plane and put them up in a hotel for Christmas, then i would be just peachy. I wasn't thinking about the holidays when I left California. It will be ok. I will have to save up and send for them after the holidays when rates go waaaay down.
I can think of someone else I would love to see also.
So anyway, I start work tomorrow. This should be interesting. Im also looking forward to starting school. Just 3 more years of it.HA!
Ok, Im done. Im fine, just a little low this evening.
Have a great week!

For Sis N Soul

here's a video for you. About a house that decorates itself. Don't you wish you could just direct everything to go where you want and then take the credit for it? LOL. Has flashing images. So If you cant take it, don't watch!

Do I Have To?

Oh wow. Sounded like something just ran by my head. Im laying in bed upstairs. Must be something on the roof or in the attic. Here, let me use my X-ray vision to see what it is.
Oh drat. Forgot I gave my superhero powers to one of the X Men. Oh well.
So hows your day? Mine has been s l o w so far. The day is cool (rain tomorrow) and it's a sleepy day. But alas, we are getting a Christmas tree today! I love the smell of a Christmas tree! ***DISCLAIMER- I WILL NOT BE RESPONSIBLE FOR MY ACTIONS IF I HEAR ANYONE CALL IT A HOLIDAY TREE!!!!! I hope we get a smelly one. Uh, one that smells good, I mean.


All right. Im going to see about getting some serious zzzzzz's in for a few minutes. I hope you have a pleasant day!

Where'd My Post Go??

Wow. Blogspot must have been offended because I posted one sentence. LOL. I figure there must be a 2 sentence minimum? Oh well.
On to other things.............

Today was great! A little emotional (more so this week if you ladies know what I mean), but time well spent w/friends (like family) eating,talking and laughing. I started to cry earlier talking to my daughter. I do miss them. Alot. But their growed to coin a phrase. It's just this was the first year that I have not actually made something or had Thanksgiving w/them.

After dinner, which was actually spent at the table w/no TV, we watched Four Christmases. Great movie w/ Vince Va Va Voom Vaughn and Reese Witherspoon. Didnt they hook up at one point?

And after that, while Dallas kicked Raider butt, I made calls and txts from family and friends. musta said Happy Thanksgiving a thousand times. Im soooo past that now. I decided to say Merry Christmas now. HA!

Im just soooooo darn Thankful like never before.
Annnnnddddd tp top that off an old friend called me back after I asked if i could tell his daughter Happy Thanksgiving. She's just a doll! I must have asked her 12 thousand questions and super fast. lol. I was nervous. Must have been a precursor to later in the conversation because my friend got on the phone and asked me uncomfortable yet encouraging questions ( do NOT wake me up at 6 Soul to ask!!) . Im hoping this will go places.........hehe

Oh, did I mention that I have a fantastic pic of them? Kinda captures their personality in it.

So now Im in bed watching The Matchmaker w/Jeannie garasomething. A pretty good movie.
Im a sucker for a good romance. Lots of cussing in it though.

See you in the AM!

Happy Thanksgiving!!

Well. I woke up. Mother Nature visited me. I need to get up. Im done.

Just a quick post. Im supposed to be in the shower getting ready to go to the job. Today is the day that I get to spend actual time at home w/the family I will be nannying (is that a word?). I look forward to it. It's part of The Dream. Another step.
I took a Stoopid FB Test today (that's what I call them) and it was "what song describes your life" and it said it was accurate. It was! My song was "Unwritten" by natasha somebody. I went and watched it and realized it was a remake. But I listened to it really for the first time. really listened. Wow. Gotta love it!
Anyway. Idon't have much to write. The brain is in a slight fog for the moment. Would love for you to drop a line and let me know how YOUR doing!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4lFXy5bIiSA

Secret

First of all,I would like to thank all the people that made this happen.............lol. Ok, just kidding! Kinda.
Thank you for the kind comment Soul. And yes, Cabela's was something else!
Of course it does not take much to entertain me.
So this journey called Texas, hmmm, where do I start?
How about w/the walk home yesterday?
Ma, you know your not in California anymore when you see this:










Quite the culture shock here for me!
Imagine of you will a place where men actually open the doors for ladies,say please and thank you,SMILE at strangers and ask "How y'all doin?"
Wow, I think Im in heaven!
Now, if I could just find that MAN. Hmmmmmm
You see, I KNOW I should be married.
How?
Glad you asked!
I LOVE to take care of people! And don't like lonely.
I just had to "redefine" my title.
I went from "single mom" to "empty nester". YUK TWICE!
So where the heck are the Gentlemen? The good ones that is!

Ok, I'll be patient. I still have 3 or more years for school.
but when Im done it would be nice to have a soulmate,business partner and confidante.
You writing this all down, God?

Allright, on to other matters.
I have a job. Kinda. I start the nanny job Tues (tomorrow). Soul and Soulman have been kind enough to let me borrow the car. Thanks, guys! I keep telling Soul that her n Soulman are like peas n carrots.
And then next week my employers will rent a car for me to use to drive out there to work as a live-out. And if all goes well, I will become a live-in!
We all get along very well. they have 2 year old twins and a 7 year old . Cute family.

It will be nice to work again. Specially taking care of a household. Yah, im strange, I know.
Yikes! Dogs went beserk. I turned on music and they are not used to it. Wow. it's ok though.
Funny how even animals have routines.

Im about to be outta here but wanted to share why the post was named Secret. I have a secret blogspot where I once posted a very personal poem. felt like if i did NOT blog some feelings, that I would explode like the Blueberry girl from Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.
Well, I went to the blog to make it go byebye because I thought it just rambled (and it did). But a guy who posts poems here all the time said he was drawn in and was waiting to see more.
I have decided I will keep this secret blogspot and post more.
That's all for now!

Wee Haw!!

Hello Everyone!
It's been a loooong time beetween posts. Didn't mean to stay away for so long.
Well, things have progressed alot since my last post. Im in Texas now and loving it!
I experienced my first TX thunderstorm last night. Not too bad, but I ended up on the couch downstairs and scared the crud outta Soul. Sorry Soul : )

So I had decided to leave my church family, my real family,my hometown and California for something better.
I had been becoming more and more depressed since the last post and really just felt like laying down and dying due to all that junk going on in my life. And even worse was just the fact that I wasn't even sure where my relationship w/God was even going. And He has always been my First Love. the idea of not trusting in and relying on Him was breaking my heart. I didnt understand at that point that He was leading me to a new place. And it wasn't working because it time for change.
I was advised to stay and that was really working on me because I consider myself to be very loyal and felt that to leave may be the wrong thing to do, but still had to admit that I had my peace w/the decision to leave.
This Journey has been the best so far. Im curious to see where it leads. I applied to college to get my BS in Business Mgmt but have to start off w/my AA and may work my way up. Depends.
My dream is to own a B&B. My plan is to get a job (3 interviews this week,yay!),go to school for at least 3 years to tweak the hospitality skills already placed in me, pay off my debt and then pursue my dream of owning the B&B.

Problem is that I will end up owing for the schooling when Im done. Well, I guess that's the price you pay for the dream.
Im not the greatest blogger and I apologize for that. And Im getting distracted by nekkid men on Souls blog (OMG did she really do that? lol!),watches and food.
I give up. I'll get back to this later.
And I'll have a tell all about a certain someone that is becoming very special to me.
Ok. Tata for now!